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Thursday, July 15, 2010

living a life

I 've been trying to start blogging again but I can't seem to get any ideas out of my head. I start typing then suddenly my mind goes blank and the post becomes a draft. Then eventually the idea just drifts away. Draft drifting wtf.

Life has been pretty unexpected lately. I've been facing ups and downs all week. Good things happen, then bad things happen. It's somewhat the only cycle of life which I'm not really fond off. But I guess some balance in life is not all bad. I mean, being happy all the time can be a little annoying.

Lately I've been seeing true friends and fake friends choose their sides. I've reached a point where I don't really care anymore. I want to be surrounded with people that support me. That comfort me. Those who constantly torment me into doing things for them, that is not a friend at all.

I also want to live my life. I want my life to be how I live it. I don't want to be tied down. I want to feel unlimited. As for right now. I'm just living. Please don't interrupt me.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Done

Life has really been uneven lately. So much have been going on and there is nothing that I can seem to keep up with. It's like I try and I try but nothing seems to be working. You know how people say that you can never try enough, but I am at a point where I'm getting sick of trying. Why am I always the one that has to try? Why can't someone else try for once. I don't see them try as hard as I am. They're just taking the easy way out. So that is why I'm saying this now. I'm done. I'm done with trying. I'm done with trying to be this person that you want me to be. I'm done trying to constantly fix what's broken just so things don't go too far. I'm done trying to pull you back to the ground when you fly too high. I'm just done trying.

I know I don't blog much these days but this is just something I can't hold in anymore.

You can be happy with your life. In order for me to be happy. I have to do this.

Screw you by the way.