Forever is so overrated.

I'm feeling a teeny bit under the weather. Been having very little sleep lately and my head just feels like it's about to explode. Found out something shocking yesterday that maybe making the rest of my years in multimedia university the perfect recipe for disaster. Shall not mention it here since it's not finalized but hear this, even if it was finalized. I'd still not mention it.

I guess things change for a reason. Gosh! another episode of change. I'm not sure whether I can handle this much change in a year. There is a part of me that feels nothing. But another part of me feels like I'm losing something big. Literally and technically speaking. But maybe it's for the best, we'll just look at the cup half full rather than half empty. We should use the time we have left to make up the times that we're going to lose. Trust me guys. This is not the end.

Period!

Dis.....

Today’s word is disappointed.

Yes, that is what i’m feeling right now. I’m feeling very disappointed with myself and the situation i’m in now. Everything is not going as planned and it’s getting me really frustrated. I don’t know why i’m not able to take control of all these situations. It’s slowly draining me physically and mentally. I need help. Like seriously.

Due to all this. I’ve been having these random mood swings lately. Is everyday counted random? I have this big grudge against the world. Yes, it’s no longer against a person or a thing. It’s the world. I feel like life is purposely giving me all these tasks to handle with so little time on my side. And when a certain task is not carried out properly. I’ll just blame the world.

Yes. You can see where the disappointment comes in. So that explains why i’m feeling so disappointed right now. Many things are not going as planned and there is definitely no room for a re-do. How depressing.

I have tons of assignments to be done and I have not even started on any of it. How joyful is that? The main plan was to start today but it failed miserably. I totally forgot my papers in the car and now that it’s about to rain. I might as well enjoy the night before I really start on my assignments.

I miss you by the way

Today is definitely the day.

I love how I used to sound. I love the sincerity that I had in my sentences. I love how everything was just fine and there was nothing really major to think about. I want to feel that way again. I want to feel free again. Free from all these ruthless emotions. Well hey guess what? Today is the day I make that transition. I am shaking it all of. I am throwing out the bad and bringing in the good.

For starters, I am going to finally accept that things have changed and I'm okay with it. Like seriously. A person told me that bestfriends don't need to see each other everyday to be close. They are just close inevitably. So read that Tunku Zafirah! We will always be BESTFRIENDS FOREVER EVER! don't you forget that :)

I'm also mending broken relationships with people. I need all the good I can get. I'm going to live a simple life. Not too much frills. I've been getting that a lot lately. Since I've been hanging out with my classmates from college. They have taught me that living a simple life is not all bad. You have yourself surrounded with good people, have a healthy life and portray a positive outlook of yourself. You don't need to have a fancy car, diamond rings on all five fingers, designer clothing that costs more than your monthly pay or a membership at the most expensive turf club in the city. Those are the things we think we need, but it's actually what we want.

We need simplicity. I'm going for simplicity nowadays. What more can I wish for? I believe that when you set the bar at such a high standard at such a young age, you'll have trouble maintaining and evolving to be better when you're older. I mean, yea sure being rich is nice but what's important is enjoying life doing exactly what we love to do.

I'm starting today. I'm making today the point where I turn around. I'm setting my priorities straight. I'm living a simple life and enjoying all the great things that life has to offer.

enough said.

shorttalk

The past is meant to stay in the past and the future is where I need to look at. I've been so cautious in mending the past, I forgot to take care of my future. Well that is no more. From now on, I am making me my top priority. Everyone comes after me.

By the way, Your guts disgusts me :)